Monday, 7 April 2014

Not a story. I just wanted to share some little things that helped me fix my soul when my brain was kicking my heart in the dick.

Today's been a sad, strange day. Sometimes unhappy news can serve as a reminder that we must all try hard to be kind and compassionate to one another.

I posted the following on someone's blog a couple of weeks ago when they shared their recent experience with depression and anxiety. I know it's unorthodox, and it's not the kind of thing that I use this blog for (my six (6) blog followers have come to expect a certain standard and consistency in my work. Probably). But goodness me, there's a lot of negativity out there, isn't there? Here's a little something to help neutralize that. It might just be the thing that that one person needs to read right now.


Dear ___,

Thanks for posting this. Sorry to hear you're having a rubbish time.


When I was ill, I remember how hard it was to imagine getting better. Be kind to yourself. It takes time. Nourish yourself - your body with healthy food, fresh air and lots of sleep; and your soul with beautiful art. If your concentration is shot to pieces like mine was you might struggle to read for long, so poetry and graphic novels are a good choice - Craig Thompson is excellent. David Shrigley is great too. These things help me remember what's important.

I watched this many times.

Remember these lines from "If":

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

Allie Brosh's blogs about her experience with depression are also excellent.

If you feel stressed and under pressure (hahaha..."if") write yourself a list of things you do and don't have to do every day. I did this for a short time when I was so ill I couldn't work:

I DO have to:
Get out of bed, shower, get dressed.
Leave the flat for at least 30 mins a day.
Cook dinner for my partner.

I DON'T have to:
Go outside of a two mile radius of my home.
Respond to emails if I don't want to.
Talk to anyone I don't want to.

I'm lucky enough to have a wonderful partner - he and my family are an amazing support network, and it sounds as though you have a very similar one. Let them look after you - remember you'd do the same for them. It's what humans do.

I hope you don't mind me making these suggestions - and I'm certainly not suggesting that if you read a couple of blogs and watch a few youtube clips you'll be able to ditch the meds and spend your days cartwheeling through clover fields. I just wanted to share some little things that helped me fix my soul when my brain was kicking my heart in the dick.

Bests,
Michelle x